Geez its hard to admit that. Really hard. I mean, I want to be good at it. I dream of being good at it. I have hopes that someday I will be good at it.
I don't know what to do with LittleK when I am trying to teach the other two. I don't know how to keep GirlM quiet while I'm doing math with BoyD. I don't know how to help BoyD get his work done with all the distractions. I don't know how to manage BoyD when he needs an explanation but I'm in the middle of a book with the little ones.
It is a little chaotic around here during the school day and I spend as much time disciplining as I do teaching! (Probably an exaggeration, but it feels that way!) I don't have oodles of patience and I'm not a laid back sort of mom. I also realize that my precious angel children are not always precious angels. :)
The reason for this blog post? Is it to discourage anyone from homeschooling? On the contrary. It is to say that I wouldn't give this up for any peace or order or structure in the world! And to say that if I can do it, ANYONE can! If this impatient, anal, perfectionist-but-never-getting-close-to-perfection mama can do it, you can, too.
And to tell you that it is worth it. To get to spend this time teaching, watching, interacting with, learning about, and discipling my children, is the greatest thing I will ever do. I will not miss their achievements or their failures. What a gift! Plus, I think the Bible says something about taking complete joy when you face trials of many kinds, because the testing produces endurance, and when this perseverance (endurance) finishes its work, I will lack nothing. Not even patience and order. :) Bring it on!